secret child

a ticket to stay
is a one way ticket
a one way ticket down
this where you buried me
this where i drowned
if i got to heaven i surely would run away the second day
what's a sinner's heart gon do with happiness
i could not wash it clean by the heaven's gate
remaining heavy and outside
the angels would not greet me
let along let alone

i don't need you the way the grass would need sun
i need you the way i do
will surpise you
but again you have strayed from me
love again you are never fucking staying
texting for a ride the minute you got here
it'a ticket down
before the pizza gets too cold
my heart is cold cold
my heart is cold cold
my feet are hurt my knuckles burned
my bones red
my teeth tingling with pain
i feel as if this is the
end
switch up the meds kick up the dose
and wait
i fucking hate the wait
i feel like i'm living to travel towards destruction
you calling me out
for that
you come and go as you please
well love you are not staying
then just fuck and leave
i'm a secret child fuck my testimony
the calendar be flipping
ice cream soup, ice cream turned ice cream soup

rain or shine a journey into the outside
smash down that white until it's all mash down the fucking
drain