something more (ffs)

詞：sarya ; 曲：sarya

這首歌非常沮喪，因為每天都要找自己想做的事情
人需要做對自己有意思的東西，偶爾會找不到方向
當想不起來的時候，會非常沮喪

我知道一直都有機會把自己變得更厲害有趣，但當下自己可能只想偷懶
不過總是不得不被迫地往前，尋找對自己有意義的東西

但我當下真的只想偷懶
就算媽曾對我說：我必須要慶幸自己還有時間在胡思亂想......
(ok, 你說的沒有錯)

i wake up every morning trying to find something to do
whether it means walking to work
or making breakfast for you

what we’re supposed to accomplish
i have no fucking clue
but it’s nice and not nice to constantly have to choose

perhaps i’ll apply myself and work towards my goals
or stay in bed, get lazy, or wander around in the cold
reflect and see which activities stir this lost soul
to live an idle life with no impact, would i be so bold?

i try to want something more
in this life
in this life

[small talk]

perhaps i will go volunteer for the community
perhaps i will stay in, eat cereal and watch tv
do you know what my mother used to say to me?
"you’re just lucky you have time to waste
overthinking"

i try to want something more
in this life
in this life

[what am i doing
i am so tired
but i didn’t do anything productive]

[i am so sleepy
i just want to lie in
today not the day when i change the world]

[i can’t seem to focus on anything today
but i have so much to do
so much to do]