Death of Me (初版)

她在房間裡用30鎊的吉他寫了第一首歌
改寫了結局兩次 最後卻還是倒在酒吧裡
我該怎麼跟她說
多年後的現在 她還會繼續為他寫著歌呢

她還是擁有夢想中的他
而且是個長大成熟的男人了
他留了一點鬍鬚
但在她面前還是個男孩子
她現在坐的是副駕 做著大人口中的事情了

我們坐在同一個公園的同一張板凳上
空氣裡有著暫停聲 跟充滿回憶的目光
想要問問過去的我們到底發生了什麼
但問了又如何 畢竟他現在就坐在我旁邊呀

時間點真的是個令人又氣又好笑的東西
你永遠都不會想到事情會在最沒有期待的時候發生
你們漸行漸遠 往不同的方向走著
卻又同時走在沒有改變的平行線上
因為在所有爛事後
所有瞎事後 成年後 看過光鮮亮麗的社會後
最終我們還是彼此心裡的弱點
他遊歷了整個國家 在別人身上找著我的影子
我也正在體驗人生 思考著想成為什麼樣的人
明明外面有這麼多選項
但看不見的人終究是看不見的

我們在同一條街的那間店喝著酒
街上有寂靜的聲音跟威士忌的空瓶
想要問問過去的我們到底發生了什麼
但其實回憶都還在我腦裡
全部都在我的腦袋裡！

我記得第一次坐在你藍色摩托車抱著你
也記得你在園遊會握著我的手到處炫耀
我記得我們在跨年夜騎上山看日出
也記得我換遍了衣櫥 嘗試你喜歡的穿衣風格

我記得你第一次見到我爸的時候手抖的樣子
也記得你在吵架一半的時候開始笑我的口音
我記得在夏天爬著坡 汗水弄髒你的白色t桖
也記得我們在那年九月吵架哭著想著
「這就是結尾了嗎」

那根本不是結尾
因為他現在正坐在我旁邊！

時間點真的是個令人又氣又好笑的東西
你永遠都不會想到事情會在最沒有期待的時候發生
你們漸行漸遠 往不同的方向走著
卻又同時走在沒有改變的平行線上
因為在所有爛事後
所有瞎事後 成年後 看過光鮮亮麗的社會後
最終我們還是彼此心裡的弱點

She wrote her first song in her bedroom
With a 30-pound guitar
Rewrote the ending twice
Then end up drunk at some bar
How should I tell the little one
She’d still be writing him songs even now
She will still have McDreamy
And he’s more than a boy now
He grew a bit of facial
But still acts like a child when she’s around
Riding shotgun and something more in his car
We were sitting on the same bench in the same park
There were pauses and gazes of memories
Wanted to ask about the past of us
but what’s the point now
When he is sitting next to me
It’s a funny thing ‘cause timing’s a bitch
And you’ll never know that day will come when you least expected
You drifted apart and went to different directions
But then again, nothing has changed
‘Cause after all the shit
And all the drama
And puberty
And the glamorous world
I know that I’m still the death of him
He’s still the death of me
He went around the country, searching for glimpse of me
While I was having adventures, figuring what I should be
There are all the options
but you can’t tell the blind to see
We were drinking in the same store in the same street
There were silences and bottles of whisky
Wanted to ask about the past but it’s all in my head
It’s still all in my head!
I remember when I first held you from the back on your brand new blue scooter
And you holding my hand at the school fair ‘cause you wanna show me off
Driving up to the mountains on New Years eve to see the first sunrise
Changing my whole closet just to be more of your type
I remember how your hands were shaking ‘cause you’re the first to meet my father
And you laughing at my accent, saying it’s cute in the middle of a fight
Walking up the hills in the summer, how the sweat ruined your t-shirt
How we fought and cried in September thinking
‘This is the end of it all’
It’s not the end of it all
‘Cause he is sitting next to me!
It’s a funny thing ‘cause timing’s a bitch
And you’ll never know that day will come when you least expected
You drifted apart and went to different directions
But then again, nothing has changed
‘Cause after all the shit
And all the drama
And puberty
And the glamorous world
I know that I’m still the death of him
He’s still the death of me