Me, Myself & I

我知道我會沒事的
這也不是我的第一次挫敗了
但我會是你看過提著購物袋
卻最難過的女生了

這麼多的憤怒擠在這些骨肉裡
這麼多的疑問擠在這個身體裡
因為當愛死了 它會到哪去呢?

現在我碎碎念、寫著歌、詛咒著他
白天喝酒 想著「真的是我的問題嗎？」
信用卡跟理智都刷爆了 卻不敢到羞恥
因為也許物質真的不會是我需要的吧

我也想停下腳步好好看看周遭
但心裡已經死了 看了又能如何
我是不是給予他們太多權利了？

我寫著沒有辦法實現的故事
我寫著歌來尋求平靜
失敗又如何呢？
反正每次的失敗都能合理化的
你不能說你了解我
因為我了解的只有要好好活著
想成為我嚮往的那種大人
卻讓我變得隻身一人

我只是個很普通的女生
我也並沒有想改變這個世界
畢竟它不會更糟或更好了

我能好好收拾自己支離破碎的狀態
也能像海賊一樣在大洋間翱翔
但這樣的樂觀也是種詛咒吧

現在我討好著他們、卑躬屈膝著
無視著在我眼前發生的事情
所以我裝笨、裝得有趣
裝作女生該有的文靜樣子來觀察事情來由

但我在水溝邊抓著自己的頭髮
給了我身體這麼多的負擔只為了感到活著
自己到底屬不屬於這個世界呢？

我寫著沒有辦法實現的故事
我寫著歌來尋求平靜
失敗又如何呢？
反正每次的失敗都能合理化的
你不能說你了解我
因為我了解的只有要好好活著
想成為我嚮往的那種大人
卻讓我變得隻身一人

我在街上羞澀 在床上大露骨
他們也還是能質疑我的忠誠
又說我太過精明、太過善良
求著那些我不應該感到抱歉的人

他們能夠定義各種標籤與八卦
我也能跟著演戲 讓我的肺付出代價
因為我知道還不到放棄的時候

我寫著沒有辦法實現的故事
我寫著歌來尋求平靜
失敗又如何呢？
反正每次的失敗都能合理化的
你不能說你了解我
因為我了解的只有要好好活著
想成為我嚮往的那種大人
卻讓我變得隻身一人

I know I'll be better, it's not my first defeat
But I’m the saddest girl with shopping bags you’ll ever see
So much anger in flesh and bones
All that confusion packed in this body
‘Cause when the love dies, where does it go?

Now I’m rumbling on, writing songs, cursing his name
Drinking in the day, hesitate, ‘Is it me to blame?’
Max out credit cards and sanity, but didn't feel ashamed
‘Cause maybe diamonds will never be my best friend

I would’ve stopped and take a moment at the flowers
But there’s no use of looking when you feel dead inside
Have I, have I, given them too much power?

I write stories that I cannot live in
And write songs when I want some peace of mind
What’s the point of failing?
When every mistake could be justified
You wouldn’t say you know me
When all I know is to stay alive
The grownup that I wanted to be
Left with only me, myself and I
Me, myself and I

I’m just a common little girl, who never wanted to make a change in this world
That’s never been better or worse
I could pick up myself piece by piece
And travel like a pirate in the seven seas
But, it’s a blessing and curse

Now I’m kissing their feet, bending my knee
Refusing to see what’s happening in front of me
So I play dumb, acting all fun, keep my mouth shut
Like a woman should be just to know the scheme

But I was holding up my hair by the gutter
I gave my body all that pain just to feel alive
Am I, am I, part of this world?

I write stories that I cannot live in
And write songs when I want some peace of mind
What’s the point of failing?
When every mistake could be justified
You wouldn’t say you know me
When all I know is to stay alive
The grownup that I wanted to be
Left with only me, myself and I

I was shy in the streets, sexy in the sheets
But they’d still question my loyalty
I was being too bright, being too kind
Begging to those that I shouldn’t feel sorry

They could make up all the labels and the rumours
I could go along and let my lungs pay the price
‘Cause I, ‘cause I know it’s no time to give in

I write stories that I cannot live in
And write songs when I want some peace of mind
What’s the point of failing?
When every mistake could be justified
You wouldn’t say you know me
When all I know is to stay alive
The grownup that I wanted to be
Left with only me, myself and I
Me, myself and I