是她 But Her (Demo in Florence)

我早就知道你那些遊戲了
但距離這種程度的心碎
也有段時間了
在十二年的拉扯後
還以為我會更理性
果然你就是我的底線了吧

我的朋友告訴我你有了個新對象
不是任何女生 是她
知道她可能是結局的恐懼蔓延著
因為她擁有我給不了的所有東西

你昨天打來了電話
另一頭的聲音顯的如此堅定
你說「我放棄我們了」
「我不想再奮鬥執著了」

很痛的
畢竟你打破了承諾 牽了她的手
你說我明明還在一個人堅持著
該怎麼這樣活著？
很痛的
因爲你沈淪在自己的不安中
相信了你所有假設的壞結局
但你的腦中還會浮現我嗎？

你呀 說你不是認真的吧
是你給了我家的畫面
你把我推開 但你不知道俗話所說的
「家就是心之所在」嗎？

我呀 我也知道自己很卑微
在這緊抓著你拋棄的東西不放
說我蠢也好 說我笨也好
但別說我是盲目相信著
因為你明明留下了這麼多線索呀

這個週五夜晚
你在替她點著蠟燭吧
而我也感受到自己淡出你的人生了

很痛的
畢竟你打破了承諾 牽了她的手
你說我明明還在一個人堅持著
該怎麼這樣活著？
很痛的
因爲你沈淪在自己的不安中
相信了你所有假設的壞結局
但你的腦中還會浮現我嗎？

很痛的
好似你一直等著我離開一般
因為你知道我的存在
是唯一阻擋你倆關係的因素
很痛的
什麼該相信 又什麼不該相信？
這份我無法拼湊的拼圖
我還是會浮現在你腦中的吧？
說我是對的吧？
對吧？

I knew your little games
But it’s been a while
Since this kind of heartbreak
Thought I’d be more rational
Twelve years of tug of war
You’re my weak spot after all

My friends, they told me you got a new girl
Not just anyone but her
The fear of mine knowing she might be the one
‘Cause she’s got everything I couldn’t give

You called last night
Sounded so firm on the other side
Saying you, you gave us up
That you fought enough

And it hurts
You broke our promise and held her hand
Now tell me how could I possibly live with that
When I’m still here trying to fight?
And it hurts
When you took her body and my heart
You drown in illusions
And trust your assumptions
But do I still cross your mind?

You, tell me you’re not serious
You gave me the picture of home
You pushed me away
But don’t you know what they say
That home is where your heart is

I, I know it’s pathetic
To be holding on what you left
Call me dumb, call me stupid
But don’t call me foolish
‘Cause you left the breadcrumbs behind

It’s Friday night
And you’re putting on candlelights
And I feel myself fading out of your life

And it hurts
You broke our promise and held her hand
Now tell me how could I possibly live with that
When I’m still here trying to fight?
And it hurts
When you took her body and my heart
You drown in illusions
And trust your assumptions
But do I still cross your mind?

And it hurts
Like you’re waiting for me to be gone
‘Cause you knew my existence was the only thing
That stopped you two carrying on
And it hurts
What to believe, what to not?
The pieces of puzzle I couldn’t add up
I still do cross your mind
Tell me I’m right
Tell me I’m right