Broken (Home-alone session)

那正午夜時分
我邊哭邊打給了Anita
出現在她的酒吧後
才認知到這次連威士忌都救不了我了

因為我遇到了一個男孩
他沒有擁有一切 卻能用爛笑話讓我笑的跟小朋友一樣
每次我想留下的時候
又怕受傷 用最苛薄的方式迴避他
看看我的預設與自我保護都做了些什麼
我殘破不堪了

那正夜時分
是我們第一次背對背睡覺
我是很想轉過去的
但也許這樣他就會在造成傷害前離開我了吧

但我希望他能知道
每次他說「我又做錯了什麼」時
我心如刀割
到底該怎麼解釋 我每次依賴了別人
教會了我不再去隨便依靠

但我想再愛人 我也很努力了
我不想自己殘破不堪而失去你
我不想繼續殘破不堪了

Was in the middle of the night
I called Anita, soaked in tears
And there I was at her bar
But this time even whiskey can’t fix me anymore

‘Cause I met a boy who doesn’t have everything
But made me feel like a little girl with his stupid jokes
Every time I feel like staying
I push him away in all the cruelest ways
My assumptions and I
Look at what we’ve done
I’m broken
I’m broken

Was in the middle of the night
For the first time, we were sleeping back to back
I wanted to turn around
But maybe this way
He will leave before more damage is done

But I hope he knows
How it kills me every time he says
‘What did I do wrong’
How do I try to explain
Not relying is not having risk at all
But I want to love again
I’m trying
I don’t want to stay broken
I don’t want to stay broken