What If This Is As Good As It Gets?

「如果最好的狀態只有這樣呢？」在努力活成理想模樣的過程中，外表假裝不在乎，內心卻極度在意世俗定義的成就與年齡門檻。即便確實在前進，每一步仍顯得緩慢。作者反思時間與選擇：若更早做出不同決定，若曾得到長輩支持，是否人生會截然不同？這份對「錯過」的年齡焦慮，既是對創作生涯的提問，也是一種世代普遍的不安。

Written and produced by Katree

It can always be worse, I guess
But it's kinda boring, kinda bland
Calling upon the universe
Don't think they'll answer
There's no meaning or master plan

Try to monetize your passions
or find yourself in Chiang Mai
Oh, to be young and carefree
Like the Hollywood stars in the movies
Guess I've missed my chance to be something

Maybe it's all too late
Not growing up as fast as I anticipated
Believe me, I've tried my very best
It bothers me more than I let on, baby

What if this
What if this is as good as it gets?
What if this
What if this is as good as it gets?
What if this
What if this is as good as it gets?
What if this
What if this

Can I let myself mourn
for the dreams that never happened
Keep wishing life was different
And the younger me made better choices
And the grown-ups always said yes
But maybe it's all too late
Not growing up as fast as I anticipated
Believe me, I've tried my very best
It bothers me more than I let on, baby

What if this
What if this is as good as it gets?
What if this
What if this is as good as it gets?
What if this
What if this is as good as it gets?
What if this

But maybe it's all too late
Not growing up as fast as I anticipated
Believe me, I've tried my very best
It bothers me more than I let on, baby

What if this
What if this
What if this

But maybe it's all too late
I'm going back to the place where I first started
Believe me, I've tried my very best
It bothers me more than I let on, baby

我想事情總還可以更糟吧
但現在這樣有點無聊、有點平淡
向宇宙呼喚
卻不覺得會有回應
沒有什麼生命的意義，沒有宏大的安排
試著把熱情變現
或去清邁尋找自我
啊，多想年輕又無憂無慮
像電影裡的好萊塢明星
我大概已經錯過成為「什麼」的機會
也許一切都太晚了
成長得沒有我預期的那麼快
相信我，我真的已經盡了全力
只是那份在意，比我表現出來的還要多，親愛的
如果這
如果最好就只有這樣呢？
如果這
如果最好就只有這樣呢？
如果這
如果最好就只有這樣呢？
如果這
如果這
我能不能允許自己哀悼
那些從未實現的夢
一直希望人生能不同
希望年少的我做出更好的選擇
希望大人們總是點頭答應
但也許一切都太晚了
成長得沒有我預期的那麼快
相信我，我真的已經盡了全力
只是那份在意，比我表現出來的還要多，親愛的
如果這
如果最好就只有這樣呢？
如果這
如果最好就只有這樣呢？
如果這
如果最好就只有這樣呢？
如果這
但也許一切都太晚了
成長得沒有我預期的那麼快
相信我，我真的已經盡了全力
只是那份在意，比我表現出來的還要多，親愛的
如果這
如果這
如果這
但也許一切都太晚了
我要回到最初開始的地方
相信我，我真的已經盡了全力
只是那份在意，比我表現出來的還要多，親愛的