PSO J318

I’m staring at that reflection in the mirror and I wonder who that is,
I often ask myself maybe in later, would I still be picturing the same picture
Cuz its often, not seldom, I question who I is
They’re saying they’re afraid to die
But I’ve already died one time

Maybe its two, or three I don’t know

Why’s it so hard to tell if one’s lying?
Why’s it so hard to ease another one’s mind?
Why’s it so hard to ease my own mind?
Why’s it so easy for me to write rhymes?

I be feeling empty, can’t feel none im numb,
Heart’s still beating but I can’t really hear it
Mind’s still thinking but why I gotta bear from what I think
Palm’s still sweating but I can’t really feel a thing
I know that I’m one good motherfucker just tryna find a shoulder to lean on
Got used to getting drunk
Getting blacked out unconsciously
Completely forgot how being conscious be

Always been wanting to find love
Is it the reason that causes the storm to rage on
It aint something that I could really speak on
Its just the shit that I be on

Concrete jungle, freezing and cold
Constant rumble, brutal and bold
I wasn’t wrong tho, i aint got none bro,
I been talking shit to myself all the time
cuz

like I said I aint got none

I’ve always be the devil’s favorite customer,
I pay him a visit unwillingly
every day and night, late in night, its again the battle’s time, flip it to 999 that’s what im
tryna do

Finna let it crash and burn, I do
rap and mourn,
I be rapping real it’s true
that rapping hurts,
Fuck tryna blend in the, herd, I aint getting heard,
Feeling like that PSO J318 in the universe,
u can hear it in this verse,
Although shit’s gonna get worse and worse but I thank god cuz it aint the worst
Its just something that I gotta learn
Once tryna set it on and just let it burn
But figured out that self respect’s also something u gotta earn,
I aint tryna put on the same clothes or the same shoes that my father worn

Traumatized and haunted by them ones I created,
I can still see the wounds being chewed by them fucking worms,
they don’t know how much blood I gotta put in the pen to write down them fucking words