滿月

在約分了一切表象之後，我只剩下一個微小的支點，確確實實地撐起自己。支點代表著仍然與現實相連，是一個我與世界的信物。我清醒地看著世界在我周圍流轉，唯我在原地停留。目光帶領意識，要動或要停，都不是我要決定。於是我被迫直視那些在月背的暗處，那些黑得像深淵的虛空，終於被我看得透出光亮。

這是一首關於封閉循環與低限存在的歌。它不試圖給出答案，只忠實地記錄著：我們不可避免而不由自主地下沉，緩慢地被包覆在流體之中、起點和終點在生命中的某處相遇，悲哀但圓滿地呼應著宿命。

After stripping away every surface and illusion, I am left with a single, fragile point of support—small, yet solid enough to hold me upright. It stands for my remaining connection to reality, a token exchanged between the world and me. I watch, fully awake, as everything moves around me while I remain still. My gaze pulls my consciousness along; whether to move or to stop is no longer a choice I get to make.
So I am forced to look directly into what hides on the far side of the moon—those voids as dark as an abyss. And at last, I see them clearly enough for light to begin to seep through.
This is a song about closed loops and existence at its lowest threshold. It does not seek to offer answers. It simply bears witness: to our inevitable, involuntary descent; to the slow way we are enveloped by the current; to the moment when beginnings and endings meet somewhere within a life, echoing fate with a sadness that is, somehow, complete.

詞/曲：鄭敬儒
編曲：deca joins

我全身的重量能輕易把我擊垮
讓我坍塌
把我蒸發
我和我的倒影
沒有出口的圓圈
月亮的陰暗面
它一直在那
只是我看不見
無可避免
無路可退
倒也無所謂
我還有這支香菸
我只剩這支香菸
倒也無所謂
我眼睛裡的飛鳥
在屋頂築巢
用整夜眺望
整夜眺望
我心裡的空缺
河流的起點
流速趨緩
全都被抽乾
無可避免
無路可退
倒也無所謂
我還有這支香菸
我只剩這支香菸
倒也無所謂

_________

詞曲 songwriting｜鄭敬儒 Cheng Ching Ju
編曲 arrangement｜deca joins
製作 producer｜deca joins

主唱 / 合成器 vocals/ synth｜鄭敬儒 Cheng Ching Ju
電吉他 electric guitar｜楊尚樺 Yang Shang Hua
貝斯 bass｜謝俊彥 Xie Jun Yan
鼓組 / 打擊樂器 drums / percussion｜杜哲欣 Tu Che Hsin

錄音師 recording engineer｜洪浚程 Hong Jyun Cheng
混音師 mixing engineer｜洪浚程 Hong Jyun Cheng
母帶後期工程師 mastering engineer｜洪浚程 Hong Jyun Cheng
混音 / 母帶工作室 mixing / mastering studio｜陋室微光 Those Studio,MoriSound Studio