what was i made for - Billie Eilish Cover by Pang Pang

2024.4.28 -
這陣子的經歷，讓我想起了這首Billie Eilish與他哥哥為電影「芭比」所寫出的”What was I made for”。我們可能都會在潮起潮落中迷惘著，看著事情從好到壞，然後開始懷疑自己，是不是錯了，我所做的一切，究竟是為著什麼…？本以為隨著年齡增長，心理建設會越來越堅韌，可當遇上了每一個的夜深人靜，有時候挫折和惶恐就會突然出現，然後開始蠶食你對所有事物的熱情與信念。

而音樂對我來說就像一種救贖，演唱給誰聽也好，多少人聽也罷，我會發布這些cover或是之後的創作，都是對我自己的療癒，分享，只是想，如果有人有類似的經歷，也許也能療癒他，然後共勉之。

我今後也會繼續分享，也會開始放創作，可能有時更新的快，可能有時慢，但我會持續下去，直到我的肉身不允許我在做這件事為止。

至於音樂這個興趣的開端，這又是一個故事了…

I used to float, now I just fall down
I used to know but I'm not sure now
What I was made for
What was I made for?
Takin' a drive, I was an ideal
Looked so alive, turns out I'm not real
Just something you paid for
What was I made for?
'Cause I, I
I don't know how to feel
But I wanna try
I don't know how to feel
But someday, I might
Someday, I might
When did it end? All the enjoyment
I'm sad again, don't tell my lover
It's not what she's made for
What was I made for?
'Cause I, 'cause I
I don't know how to feel
But I wanna try
I don't know how to feel
But someday I might
Someday I might
Think I forgot how to be happy
Something I'm not, but something I can be
Something I wait for
Something I'm made for
Something I'm made for