4:03 - Kiyoteru Awaji

(Prelude)

I am sitting in my car
Waiting for a love to come
But it seems like it got lost
For its thirteenth time this month

I know I lost all of my games
When I got ghosted again
I wish I have another chance
But I feel like leaving this world tonight

(Interlude 1)

I got no job, no family
I got no chick, no money
I got no friends, no life
I ain’t got nothing

I stood at my balcony
I called for help
911, what’s your emergency

I said, I never got a compliment
I always begged for a girl to call my name
Right now I’m just can’t wait to get my first ever bouquet
When I’m getting buried with some dirt

I feel like killing myself more after the beer
It’s like an illness when you felt like the world don’t care
And now I’m urged to run into a tree at 100 km per hour

You looked absolutely gorgeous, so do the muzzle of a Glock
I felt that way especially after you gave me hope and had me blocked
Now I just can’t do nothing but look at the hands to reach 4 o’clock
Since all I found was how to jerk off a cock but not a single ways to love

Could you please help me out
By telling me what I should do now
Don’t transfer me to other dial
Since you’re the last one to hear me out

I am staying up the night
Somewhat losing my own mind
I know this isn’t what I like
Guess you also do realize that

You said he can’t handle pain
I admit I’m not a man
But he’s breaking all his heart
So shall we let baby cry for tonight

(Interlude 2)

We’ve all been once so dedicated and tried so hard
To find a girl who you can love
But after getting hurt and being hurt
You now can’t even ask for a talk

No one is looking at my eyes, no one’s at my side
No one had asked me if I’m alright
And a kitchen knife was the only one
That made me feel somewhat alive

I fall into oblivion
I’m stuck in an abyss
I’m sunk into the loneliness
And the railing is creaking so bad

However I don’t really wanna die
I still got dreams and thoughts in my mind
But I just don’t know how to go on
Live with having nothing in my life