play ignorant

nothing is real
this life is a lie
I'm in a web of delusions
nothing is real
I'll just bask in the soothing lies
I wish I had never revealed the truth
eyes closed, still awake
it's hard to sleep
each answer found has left my mind disturbed
awareness weighs upon my soul
with all these thoughts I'll never calm myself
let me drown in my sleep
this is my final exit
but this bitter pain keeps me awake
I can't shake this feeling
to grasp at truth is like grasping at sharp thorns
that tear your flesh till your fragile sanity fractures
I wish I knew nothing at all
better blind than be broken
better deaf to the sirens
better numb to dissonance
better be numb to everything
I wish I had never tried to seek
what's underneath the surface
if I knew it from the start
could I be burdened less
each answer found begets a thousand problems
curiosity draws me to a poisoned well
I choke on bitter truth
perhaps I should shut down my alertness
and play ignorant
I'll stay distant from the truth
I'll stay distant from the truth
I'll stay distant from the truth