Stage 4 depression🥀

Feeling depressed everyday
Feeling depressed every midnight
Screaming inside every second
And I don’t know what to do
I feel like I’m dying
I think I’m losing my mind
The hole inside my heart just can’t be filled
It’s so painful

I think I can’t be alone
I think I always need someone
I think I always need someone around me
I think I always need someone company me
But that’s impossible
And I can’t even find one
I can feel my brain and heart screaming

Feeling sad for my whole life
My loneliness just can’t be filled
The loneliness just can’t stop and won’t stop

Even though I have friends all over the world
In different countries
But still
None of them can be around me 24 7
Some of them are cruel and evil
Thought we are friends
Share my pain then block
Care people so much
All they do just be cruel
For somehow
People hate me
People really really hate me
So I guess I don’t even have anyone
I don’t know who I should talk

Feeling sad for my whole life
My loneliness just can’t be filled
The loneliness just can’t stop and won’t stop

Have been seeing doctors
They have been giving me medicine
And I have been taking it
But it doesn’t help
I still feel pain
I still feel empty inside
I still feel lonely inside

I think I am in stage 4 depression
There’s no cure for it
I have to live with it for my whole life
Can someone help me?
Can someone fill the hole in my heart?
I don’t think anyone could help
Even god
And I think he doesn’t want to help me either
Since everyone think I’m annoying
Then maybe I should just die
I want to die

It feels like I have a cough
Taking medicine for few days might help
But still feel my throat itchy
Doesn’t help much
Then after few days without taking medicine
Still having cough again
Like a nonstop cycle

Maybe friends company me helps
But I can feel they feel annoyed easily
In the end they just all gone
None of them stays
And I’m on the desert island
Floating on the sea
Waking alone
Living alone
Looking at the sky alone
Feel like I’m drowning
It’s so painful every day
I’m dying

Painful
Painful
It’s so painful
I can’t breathe
It hurts so bad!!!!!
Please help…..
Please help me…..
Please save me…..
I’m….. dying

Please give me medicine
Please give me Euthanasia medicine
I beg you
I don’t want to jump out the building
I don’t want to die painfully
And slowly dying

I want Euthanasia
I want to die without pain
That’s my only wish
I insist
I would be forever grateful