Rescue me

The more I look inside of me
The more hollow I am
Those memories
Is it really me?
I don’t recognize myself
Two paths diverse after every decision I made
How to choose between
Relief and misery
I stand alone and let the faith decide

Is it all destine that I
Can never run from this abyss
Where the darkness consuming me
Rotting day by day
Alone
I try to crawl but it drag me down
I can’t stop the falling
The pain is not the worst
The worst part is I that can still feel hope

If I suppose to feel the dark
Please don’t bring me light
Just sink me to the bottom
And never rescue me
I’m fine with the cold
If it’s where I belong
Never had it all
So I will never know
I’ll never know what’s lost

Too close to flame
Is there no one else remain

I’m suffocated by the shadow of me
Please tell me how the fuck can I get away
(There’s no escape)
The void is getting bigger every day
The silent is louder than I expect
(I can’t hear you)

I don’t want to pretend
everything they said is really for the best of me
I rather believe they’re dying to see
I fall down on my knee
They pray for me
When I’m at the highest
Doubting me
When everything go south
The knife stabs on your back
I don’t trust a word you say

When night comes
I fall apart
In pieces
I’m all alone

Can’t escape don’t try to run away
It’s a game no one can ever win
No hope
All these happiness is delusional

If I suppose to feel the dark
Please don’t bring me light
Just sink me to the bottom
And never rescue me
I’m fine with the cold
If it’s where I belong
Never had it all
So I will never know
I’ll never know what’s lost

Is it all destined that I
Can never run from this abyss
Where the darkness consuming me rotting day by day alone
I tried to crawl but it drag me down I can’t stop the falling
Live in the dark
Where I
Where I can’t feel hope