17. Love and Blood

我會把傷疤當作皇冠戴著
你會聽見我的聲音在你耳邊呢喃
所有的火災水患
都是我人生中 愛與淚與血的證據

我坐在計程車上 想著我到底做了什麼
來來去去的那些男生和歌曲
那些選擇真的有這麼糟糕嗎？
我太不中立了 我需要來人幫我裁決

我喝著shot 想著事情怎麼演變成這樣
現在的我不是應該更開心才對嗎？
在我這二十幾歲的年紀 我依然不知道
今晚 明天 後天的我會在哪裡

我知道我把近期所有一切都搞砸了
也看不清楚發生了什麼事
我是由過去那些玻璃碎片拼湊出來的
會成為武器或是鏡球呢？我也還不知道
但只要光裡還存在著黑暗
我就能繼續閃耀

我知道他們在我背後說了些什麼
我討厭勢力 和道義規矩 及所有的偽裝
我知道我正在深水裡沉溺
沈沒在緊繃中 背後的操作中 和不成文規定裡

在好與壞中總是有些掙扎與拉扯
我甚至做了根本不後會的決定
有些日子我還是會想家
但明明我正躺在床上不是嗎？

（只要光裡還存在著黑暗 我就能繼續閃耀）
（你會聽見我的聲音在你耳邊呢喃）

所有的火災水患
都是我人生中 愛與淚與血的證據

I’ll be wearing my scars like a crown
And you’ll hear the echoes of my sound
Chanting in your ears
Of all the fire and all the flood
They’re proof of love and blood
Of my life, from my life, of my life
I’m sitting in the taxi thinking where have I been
Kept going back and forth
Boys to boys, songs to songs
All the choices were they really that wrong
I’m too confused
I need to call an adjudication
I’m doing my shots thinking what it went wrong
Shouldn’t I be more happy with what’s going on
In my life, late 20s
I still don’t know where I’ll be
Tonight, tomorrow, or the day after that
I know I’m fucked up recently
And I can’t see clearly
I’m pieced together with broken
scattered mirrors from my past
A weapon or a disco ball
I haven’t got a clue
But I’d shine
Still shine for there is darkness in the light
I know the things they say behind my back
I hate the power and the formal manners
And the pretence
I feel myself drowning under deep waters
Intensity and behind-the-scenes
And unwritten guidelines
There are struggles from the good and the bad
I made poor decisions even though I didn’t regret
There are days that I think about home
Even when I’m in my pjs in my bed
I know I’m fucked up recently
And I can’t see clearly
I’m pieced together with broken
scattered mirrors from my past
A weapon or a disco ball
I haven’t got a clue
But I’d shine
Still shine for there is darkness in the light
I’d shine, still shine for there is darkness in the light
I’d shine, still shine for there is darkness in the light
I’d shine, still shine for there is darkness in the light
I’d shine, still shine for there is darkness in the light
You’ll hear the echoes of my sound, chanting in your ears
You’ll hear the echoes of my sound, chanting in your ears
You’ll hear the echoes of my sound, chanting in your ears
You’ll hear the echoes of my sound, chanting in your ears
I’ll be wearing my scars like a crown
And you’ll hear the echoes of my sound
Chanting in your ears
Of all the fire and all the flood
They’re proof of love and blood
Of my life, from my life, of my life
Of all the fire and all the flood
They’re proof of love and blood
Of my life, from my life, of my life