(17歲) Mama's Lullaby

起床時眼睛都還沒睜開
就準備要穿上制服
邊哭著說想要待在家裡
當時沒人告訴我
在學校的那段期間
在單純的那段時光
是再也不回去的了

我曾想熬到半夜不睡
我曾想去逛街 買東買西
我曾想親吻 嫁給隔壁那個男孩
我想要不透過電話 親眼見到我爸爸
我曾想要穿高跟鞋跟項鍊
我曾想不害怕黑暗 不害怕怪物
當時 媽媽會唱著這麽一首搖籃曲

睡吧 睡吧
上床睡吧 閉上眼睛吧

又一堂鋼琴課
又一個沒拼對的單子
還錯過我想看的電視節目
我在那邊哭著喊著
幼小的我 其實已經慢慢長成理想的樣子了
只是當時的我 什麼都不知道罷了

我不懂每個選擇都會造成不同的結局
我不懂每次教訓都會讓我變得聰明些
我不懂每一個夢想都會在心裡發芽
也不懂每一個轉角 都會有不同的驚喜
我不懂我恨的每個問題最終都會有解答
也不懂每條傷痕最終會好轉
但我總會記得媽媽睡前唱的搖籃曲

睡吧 睡吧
上床睡吧 閉上眼睛吧
睡吧 睡吧
上床睡吧 閉上眼睛吧

現在我只想在半夜前爬上床睡覺
現在我不再需要任何想要的東西了
現在我知道某一天我會遇見那個人的
現在我也知道 人生有時就是不公平的
也知道 高跟鞋不是外表看起來那樣的光鮮亮麗
更知道 怪物永遠都不是藏在黑暗裡
當我不知道該怎麼做時
永遠都有媽媽的搖籃曲陪伴著
在很混亂的時候
永遠都有著那首搖籃曲

Waking up with my eyes close
Put on my uniform
Crying to stay at home
No one told me
Back in the days in school
The age of innocence
I won’t be like that no more
I would wanna be stayin’ up late till midnight
I would wanna go shopping and buy everything I like
I would wanna kiss and marry the boy next door
I wanna see my dad instead of talking on phone
I would wanna wear high heels and necklaces
Wouldn’t wanna be afraid of the dark when the monsters crawl
While my mama will sing me her lullaby that goes...
Sleepy sleepy, sleepy sleepy
Go to bed, close your eyes
Another piano course
The word I never spelt right
And missed my favourite show
Shouting out loud
Back then when I was tiny
My path starts to show
But little did I know
That every choice I ever made makes a difference
That every lesson I ever learned makes me wiser
That every dream I ever dreamed starts to glow
That every turn I take there are surprises await
That every question I ever hate will be solved
That every bleeding scar will soon be better
Cause remember how mama used to sing me her lullaby
Sleepy sleepy, sleepy sleepy
Go to bed, close your eyes
Sleepy sleepy, sleepy sleepy
Go to bed, close your eyes
Now I wanna stuck into my bed before midnight
Now I wouldn’t need to have everything that I like
And I’m gonna meet someone at some point in my life
Now I realise life sometimes just won’t treat you kind
High heels aren’t what they seem on the outside so bright
And the dark won’t be where the monsters hide
When I wouldn’t know what to do
There’s the lullaby
It gets me through the times, mama’s lullaby