Reckless Driver in a Cadillac

是我太大膽了嗎
是我太真實了嗎
是我太直接了嗎
是我浪漫主義嗎
是我在幻想嗎
是我又在過度分享了嗎
也許真的是我無助吧 還是我就是那種女生

因為我想要約會
因為我真的在乎
因為我溝通了
因為我表現出我的好感了
因為我試著理解他
因為我以為他跟其他人不一樣
但我也沒好到哪去
看看同樣的事情已經傷害我幾次了

我想我在等著他來傷害我
我想我太想佔有他了
我想著至死不渝 但我卻先一個人死了

我是開著凱迪拉克的失控駕駛
我是不快樂的樂觀主義者
我是在十天內失去一個男生的女孩
也許本來會擁有一切的
但我寫出來的結尾卻跟電影截然不同

是我太沒耐心了吧
是我太強勢了吧
是我太勇敢還是瘋了呢
是我太直接了吧
是我太緊握著不放了吧
是我造成他太多壓力了吧
也許他真的是好意的
又或許只是我在憑空想像而已

但他親了我的脖子
他在床上抱著我
還說我可能會是家人
但他接著放慢了腳步
接著又消失了 說著「我需要釐清一下」
我以為我是對的
但也許這次他才是明智的那個

我想我在等著他來傷害我
我想我太想佔有他了
我想著至死不渝 但我卻先一個人死了

我是開著凱迪拉克的失控駕駛
我是不快樂的樂觀主義者
我是在十天內失去一個男生的女孩
也許本來會擁有一切的
但我寫出來的結尾卻跟電影截然不同

Am I being too bold?
Am I being too real?
Am I being too straightforward?
Am I romanticising?
Am I hallucinating?
Am I oversharing again?
Maybe I’m just hopeless
or maybe I’m just that kind of girl
‘Cause I wanted to hangout
And I actually cared
And I communicated
‘Cause I showed my interest
And I tried to know him
And I thought he’ll be different
But I’m nevertheless
Look how many times did the same thing break my heart
I think I waited for him to hurt me
I think I wanted him so desperately
I think about 'til death do us apart'
But I died alone instead
I’m the reckless driver in a Cadillac
I’m the optimist who’s always sad
I’m the girl who lost a guy in ten days
It could’ve been everything
But the end is not even close to the screenplay

Was I being impatient?
Was I being aggressive?
Was I being brave or insane?
Was I speaking out loud?
Was I holding too tight?
Was I causing too much pressure?
Maybe he’s got good intentions
Or maybe I’m building castles in the air
But he kissed on my neck
And he held me in bed
And he said I could be family
But then he slowed it down
And then he disappeared
And said ‘I need to figure us out’
I thought I did it right
but maybe he’s the wise one this time
I think I waited for him to hurt me
I think I wanted him so desperately
I think about 'til death do us apart'
But I died alone instead
I’m the reckless driver in a Cadillac
I’m the optimist who’s always sad
I’m the girl who lost a guy in ten days
It could’ve been everything
But the end is not even close to the screenplay