Not For Now

這首歌是我十三歲時寫的第一首歌。我從小到大都跟我的姊姊關係很緊密，但她卻在這一年離開台灣到國外讀書。姊姊當時在疫情期間離開，她才十六歲，我們兩人都還是孩子。她的離別讓我心生感觸，有很多情緒想表達，激發我創作了人生的第一首歌。

Hey, how are you
Are you alright
Cause I’m not

Oh, I’ve seen you crying
And I don’t like it
Cause it’s contagious

You know that we are over-thinkers
With that said I know you’ve thought about this
Enough for you to realize
The damage it could do

But now I know
That everything happens for a reason
And I should know that’s it’s for the best
Just gotta believe

Then why is everything getting harder
Nothing’s the same
And I don’t feel free, free anymore

Cause I just need you to be right here, right now
But I can’t seem to make it work
At least not for now

Hey, It’s been seven months
Everything I see still reminds me of you
Oh, how evil life is
Separating us even when we’re not ready

But now I know
They say everything happens for a reason
C’est la vie
Yeah, maybe everything happens for a reason
But that reason’s unknown to me

Cause I just need you to be right here, right now
But I can’t seem to make it work
At least not for now

So, tell me why after all this
I’m still so emotional?
I guess I can’t help it
My feelings take over

And I can’t stop thinking about what you said to me, to us
You said that it’d all be okay
But I know now, it was just a lie
It was all a lie

Cause I just need you to be right here, right now
But I can’t seem to make it work
At least not for now