is it ok not to be ok?

This is the original English version to my song "疯语者的独白". This song poignantly depicts the inner world of someone living with "smiling depression." The lyrics reveal the songwriter's despair and helplessness following a broken relationship, where all attempts at self-healing proved futile. Outwardly projecting an image of well-being, they internally endure feelings of neglect and the cruel irony of fate, masking genuine pain behind the words 'im ok'. This facade leads them to question, "do you lack empathy or am I insane?". The song powerfully expresses the songwriter's desperate longing for inner peace amidst overwhelming emotional chaos. Ultimately, lost in the fog, they cry out for redemption while struggling with the boundaries of self-awareness, laying bare the silent anguish and profound helplessness experienced when bearing this pain alone.

i woke up this morning
to know that you're leaving
my friends are always judging me but
they don't know a single thing

im losing myself
now that you're gone
my therapy doesn't help cause'
now im left with a broken heart

you don't know how it feels like to be left out every time
cause' you always get the glory i want but i can't have
i go around saying im okay but was it true tho
am i crazy, am i not? i don't know

is it ok not to be ok?
yeah i just can't help but feel this way
is it ok not to be ok?
do you lack empathy or am i insane?

ive been through some bad things
and now im a sad kid
wanna turn back time and fix mistakes
so now i wouldn't be here crying
thought that you'd stay with me
but that's only in my dreams
hey, you know that id never let you go

is it ok not to be ok?
yeah i just can't help but feel this way
is it ok not to be ok?
do you lack empathy or am i insane?

hey, please don't hit and run me
just tell me you'd never leave
cause' i hate being this lovesick
id hate to waste all my time
so please don't you tell me lies
deep down, i still want you here

is it ok not to be ok?
yeah i just can't help but feel this way
is it ok not to be ok?
do you lack empathy or am i insane?

either i am dramatic, or im insane