case file bonus track: IF SOMEONE IS TO BLAME / aileen 愛玲

作為整張專輯《LOVE DAMAGE : the live》燈光熄滅後的「bonus track」，全英文不插電版本的〈If Someone is to blame〉，是一場卸下所有防備與電子音牆的溺水清醒紀錄，也是整張專輯的最後結論。

製作上剝離了所有數位的侵略性與侵略性的 Synth Pop 音牆。全曲僅以一把溫暖、粗糙且帶著琴弦摩擦質感的尼龍弦吉他起步，配合 aileen愛玲 極度貼麥、近乎無防備的微距乾燥人聲。開場她呢喃著 “I stayed / when I should have moved...”，那些被刻意放大的呼吸與嘆息，彷彿她就坐在聽眾耳邊，在幽暗的房間裡吐露最私密的潰敗。

隨後，一柄深沉、幽暗的Cello緩慢下沉拉奏，像極了海浪一波波漫過胸口、將靈魂往下拉扯的物理重量。

“If someone’s to blame, maybe it’s me. I stayed too long, I couldn’t leave.”

在歌曲後半段情感宣洩的爆發點，這首歌拒絕了電子碎拍的核爆，改以大編制疊軌的原聲合唱在左右聲道進行包覆。aileen愛玲 褪去了前幾首歌（如《兇手是你》、《i am not a bitch》）那種刀鋒般的冷笑與武裝，用極具肉體拉扯感的低溫口白，坦然承認自己在宿命裡的滯留。

當最後一聲 “Maybe the way I stay...” 落下，，不留一絲殘響。這種突如其來的死寂，讓聽眾在耳鳴的空白中，徹底共感了那份在深海中被寂靜吞噬的孤獨與清醒。

If Someone Is To Blame

[Verse 1]
I stayed...
when I should’ve moved
Held my breath, waiting on you
Every word I never sent
Still echoes in the room

[Verse 2]
I read your silence...
like a sign
Called it love, called it mine
Every wave pulls me back in
I don’t fight it, I just sink
Watching the colors stray…

[Pre-Chorus]
I said I’m fine, I always do
I learned that lie from loving you
If someone’s wrong, if someone’s right
I blur the line... every night

[Chorus 1]
If someone’s to blame
Maybe it’s me
I stayed too long I couldn’t leave
If someone’s to blame
I won’t ask why
I’m holding this breath
Till time runs out of me

[Bridge]
I don’t even know
What I’m drowning in
Is it you
Or the shape I bend myself into
I stayed Because leaving felt worse

[Final Chorus]
If someone’s to blame
Maybe it’s me
I stayed too long I couldn’t leave
If someone’s to blame
I won’t ask why
I’m holding this breath
Till time runs out of me

[Outro]
They say the water is cold
But I’ve been under so long, I can’t feel the difference
Hero, Leander
Who is to blame? Maybe the sea
Maybe the way I stay