［議題］The 139th Gaze (第139次凝視)

創作聲明：
這首作品並非對基督教信仰的質疑，
（我本身算半個基督教教徒）
而是對人性微光在絕對力量面前的誠實探索。
我試圖捕捉當靈魂在神聖力量面前徹底赤裸時，
那種極度的震撼與心理戰慄。
這份戰慄值得讓我們重新思考自由與權力的界線。
若對這首歌的創作理念有興趣的？
我再私下將創作理念寄給你；
沒興趣的，
就聽歌也不錯的哦。

感謝長老教會在臉書社群上給我的鼓勵，
讓我知道我的這首歌並沒有失去它原本的創作理念。

最後⋯
這是首偽裝成宗教歌曲的政治歌。

[Verse 1]
You have searched me, Lord, and you know me.
你已經尋查我，主啊，你認識我。
You know when I sit and when I rise.
你知道我坐下，也知道我起身。
You perceive my thoughts from afar.
你從遠方洞察我的心思。
You discern my going out and my lying down.
你明白我出入和躺臥的一切。
Before a word is on my tongue,
我話語尚未出口，
You, Lord, know it completely.
主啊，你已完全知道。
You hem me in, behind and before.
你環繞我，前後籠罩我。

[Chorus]
Where can I go from your Spirit?
我往你的靈哪裡去呢？
Where can I flee from your presence?
我往你的面前哪裡逃呢？
If I go up to the heavens, you are there.
我若升到天上，你仍在那裡。
If I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
我若在陰間安置床榻，你仍在那裡。
Even there, your hand will guide me.
即便如此，你的手也引導我。
Your right hand will hold me fast.
你的右手必緊握我。

[Verse 2]
If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me."
我說：「黑暗必能遮蔽我。」
And the light become night around me.
四周的光變成黑夜。
Even the darkness will not be dark to you.
黑暗在你眼前也不黑暗。
The night will shine like the day.
黑夜必如白晝發光。
Darkness and light,
黑暗與光明，
Darkness and light,
黑暗與光明，
To you, they are exactly the same.
在你眼中，全然相同。

[Chorus]
Where can I go from your Spirit?
我往你的靈哪裡去呢？
Where can I flee from your presence?
我往你的面前哪裡逃呢？
If I go up to the heavens, you are there.
我若升到天上，你仍在那裡。
If I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
我若在陰間安置床榻，你仍在那裡。
Even there, your hand will guide me.
即便如此，你的手也引導我。
Your right hand will hold me fast.
你的右手必緊握我。

[Bridge]
For you created my inmost being.
因為你造了我的內心深處。
You knit me together in my mother’s womb.
你在我母腹中將我編織成形。
I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
我在地底深處被編織成形。
Your eyes saw my unformed body.
你的眼睛看見我未成形的身體。
Every day ordained for me was written.
你為我所定的每一天都已寫下。
In your book, before one of them came to be.
在這些日子還未開始之前，就已在你的冊上註明。

[Chorus]
Where can I go from your Spirit?
我往你的靈哪裡去呢？
Where can I flee from your presence?
我往你的面前哪裡逃呢？
If I go up to the heavens, you are there.
我若升到天上，你仍在那裡。
If I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
我若在陰間安置床榻，你仍在那裡。
Even there, your hand will guide me.
即便如此，你的手也引導我。
Your right hand will hold me fast.
你的右手必緊握我。

[Chorus]
Where can I go from your Spirit?
我往你的靈哪裡去呢？
Where can I flee from your presence?
我往你的面前哪裡逃呢？
If I go up to the heavens, you are there.
我若升到天上，你仍在那裡。
If I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
我若在陰間安置床榻，你仍在那裡。
Even there, your hand will guide me.
即便如此，你的手也引導我。
Your right hand will hold me fast.
你的右手必緊握我。

[Outro]
Search me, God, and know my heart.
尋查我，神啊，認識我的心。
Test me and know my anxious thoughts.
試煉我，察看我憂慮的思想。
See if there is any offensive way in me.
看看我裡面是否有可憎之事。
Lead me in the way everlasting.
引導我走永生之路。
I am seen.
我被看見了。
I am free.
我獲得自由。