social phobia

人生中免不了各種社交場合，看似熱絡的寒暄，卻意外地如此空泛。
不喜歡這種場合，寧願自在的待在家。厭倦做一個虛假的女孩，迎合他人，強顏歡笑。好累。
不能更做自己一點嗎?

雖然是用一隻手機一把吉他和一隻貓做出來的歌，卻完整訴說了我的內心話。

Get used to being alone with myself.
To stay at my house with my cat.
The sun shines outside but I don’t wanna get out of my bed.

People pretend to care about you
But they do this just to defuse the awkward atmosphere.
I’d rather spend time with myself. Living in my own world til I die.

Lots of fake laughs. Lots of dumb actions.
It’s not the real me smiling at you.
Tired of being a fake girl.
Wish I could disappear into this conversation.

The muscles in my face were intensely shaking.
Seemingly they want me to stop abusing them.
Better run away to release my sore cheeks.
(喂～）（今天你有空嗎 要不要出來走走）（不要 今天我想待在家裡 發呆）

I kinda have a social phobia.
Don’t know how to blend into the crowd.
I thought I was just shy, turns out it’s not the reason.
It’s my lack of social skills in my bones.

Lots of fake laughs. Lots of dumb actions.
It’s not the real me smiling at you.
Tired of being a fake girl.
Wish I could disappear into this conversation.

The muscles in my face were intensely shaking.
Seemingly they want me to stop abusing them.
Better run away to release my sore cheeks.

Can’t fit in. Feeling excluded
Am I the only one who think this way?

Lots of fake laughs. Lots of dumb actions.
It’s not the real me smiling at you.
Tired of being a fake girl.
Wish I could disappear into this conversation.

The muscles in my face were intensely shaking.
Seemingly they want me to stop abusing them.
Better run away to release my sore cheeks.

Isn’t it better to be the real me？
（好啦好啦我們出去吧）