In Bleakness, I've Taken Breath

I've locked myself in this place
I've locked myself in this place
I've locked myself in this place
I've locked myself up
locked

all the embers still burn
taint my breath with a bitter taste
all the words stay in place
never be sent
never be noticed
creeping like a snake in my vein
voices erupt in my brain
my mind is dead like a drought
sleep in unrest
waking in doubt
I can't be saved
don't ever send help
I'd rather die in my silent hell

I know my presence is a curse
I accept this is what I deserve
I'll leave no final words
for words will not decay
I find myself in perpetual purgatory

I keep all my woes in my chest
in bleakness, I've taken breath
sometimes I think I'm insane
dance in the rain
no one should feel this pain
nothing can save a moth that darts into the flames

God, see me rot in silence
angels leaving me no guidance
where do I go from here

until my last breath escapes
I'll lie awake
allow my heart to cease
and never beat again
I'm waiting with patience
allow my heart to cease
and never beat again
I'm writhing and lying awake

surrender to my sickness
salvation not in sight